Dreams

I'm pretty good at figuring out what dreams mean, however NOT nightmares. Most nights I get nightmares but occasionally I can depict their meanings. I'm going to dedicate this blog to helping people with their dreams by sharing some of my own.

Intro:
Last night I had a dream I was in a house. This house had a lot of people in it whom I believe I knew through modeling, sports, etc. I can't quite remember but something tells me it was an overnight trip in this house. There was a huge plastic box filled with water and I remember eagerly trying to get some. THEN... my dream shifts completely

Snakes:
I was looking for a small black snake.

*Note: When remembering your dream try to remember details such as colors, time of day, and numbers.

Snakes in dreams can mean a good amount of different things but because in this dream the snake was BLACK it can be considered an evil. Snakes are ground creatures and can be a peril for the underworld. Generally, any type of snake is a sign of negative power or trouble. If your snake was a different color say green or brown it could be depicted as a sexual dream. The black snake in my dream was SMALL- no bigger than the size of my hand. This could mean that I have been facing some sort of lie, an enemy, or a hidden fear.

Action: I remember holding this snake trying to kill it with my fingernails. My memory isn't the best but I'm positive I did end up killing it because I remember seeing a second snake just like it later on. Killing a snake means I am trying to overcome an obstacle in my life. Looking at my current life situations I know it means my life is taking a turn for the better.

Meaning: In MY dream the snakes represents my past. Because I am killing it means that I am moving on from my past and the hardship it has brought to my current life and I am now moving on.

Number: Seeing ONE snake in a dream might symbolize a person you feel threatened by in your life. However, since I saw TWO (possibly three) snakes in my dream it can be referred to as a problem within myself.

Complex: This is where my dream gets a little complex. The second snake I remember grabbing it and instead of killing it with my nails I held its head as it was about to bite me and moved it in a way so that it accidently bit its own body and died.

I did a little research because this was VERY strange to me and even I could not think of what it could mean. There is an ancient symbol called the Ouroboros where a snake is shown eating its own tail. It represents rebirth or a cycle. Since the snake in my dream was in fact biting itself I believe that my overcoming of the past is just a phase and will be shortlived.

Then again, I could be very wrong with the last part. With dreams the smallest detail you remember can change the meaning of the dream entirely. Normally I remember mine but I was abrubtly woken up by my dog this morning and could only grasp few bits of the dream back into my memory.

Birfday

In 11 days I will have reached 18 years. Well we'll see. All I want is a king cake. I don't want money, or happiness, or world peace- just a freshly baked king cake made by my mom. For anyone who doesn't know what that is PLEASE do your taste buds a favor and visit New Orleans. My whole family is from there so each year (around my bday) we make this wonderful bread-like cake with bright colored sugar on top and even a little plastic baby inside. Then after we eat our fill my mom toasts the leftovers in the over and makes biscottis. Genius. I miss this tradition more than anything so all i'm asking for is this one little slice of heaven. Someone please spread the word and make a newly legal adult happy. FYI: That shit they call "king cake" at the grocery store is more knock off than a gucci bag in china town. Gross

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Lazy Man's Guide To Valentines Day

St.Valentine, the patron Saint of bee keepers, epilepsy, fainting, but most importantly love! I never  understood how people have come to hate Valentine's Day! Well, okay, I get that you are single and don't have anyone to share the day with-that sucks. I've always had a boyfriend for Valentines Day so I guess I'm pretty lucky to never be in that situation BUT STILL!! This is the perfect opportunity to go out and find someone special. If you have a crush on someone then this is the best excuse to ask them out for example say, "hey, I know Valentines Day is uber cheesey and lame but would you want to come over and watch a movie with me and maybe get a bottle of wine?" Nobody is going to say no to that. Then before you know it things start to take off! So don't use Valentines Day as a day to be bitter, instead, use it to help yourself find love and happiness. So what if it's only for a day? You'll remember it for a very long time. I still have the roses I got from Matthew on our first Valentines Day :) Anyways, here are some great tips for guys when it comes to gift shopping (curtesy of Maxim Magazine! )

Where to go?

Take her on a winery tour. Lots of my friends are doing that this year and in Virginia there are many very beautiful places to go to. This is for the relaxed couple who are very comfortable around eachother and this outing makes for a perfect passionate setting.

Melting Pot. Hahaaa :) I had to put this on the list (No Maxim did not recommend this one haha) but it is, however, Matthew and I's favorite place to eat! Caution: You're going to blow $$$ easily- it is pretty expensive but the whole experience of fondoue and dipping cheesecake in a flaming pot of chocolate is well worth it.

Romantic Ski Resort. Places like Wintergreen are just plain fun. For the outdoors couple who are also a little adventurous, I highly recommend this. There will be lots of laughing and making fun of yourself when you wipe out and also lots of cuddling to keep warm with all the human-made snow around! If skiing and snowboarding aren't your thing then definitely try the tubing- SO MUCH FUN! After your outing you can rent out a condo for the weekend and enjoy the view of the resort.

Surprise! This one is for the girl you want to impress. She thinks that you are taking her to a dinner and a movie but what she doesn't know is that you have actually planned a surprise date that will knock her socks off. Take her on a picnic that you have made yourself (If the weather is sucky I wouldn't suggest this haha) but if it is a little cold bring blankets and lots of hot chocolate. Boars Head Inn is my ideal place for a picnic. Right on the lake you can see the hot air balloons taking off and all the cute duckies swimming by.


What to buy?
Chocolates, red roses, balloons, you know the whole spiel. BUT to win bonus points here is something you might want to try- lingerie! I know it sounds tough for guys but here are some tips to help you pick out the perfect set.

Size- Most of the time guys will get the size wrong. Do your homework and when she's not around sneek a peak at her lingerie. If that still scares you, go for a cute nighty. They only come in S, M, L so you don't have to worry about numbers.

Which One? There are lots to choose from but really, buy what you would want to see her in. Any girl would agree that if you like it then she will just be happy with that. Know if she likes pink as opposed to black. Also pick out the color that suits her best.
Wine

Here are some nice wines to choose from for this special day:

Brut Rosé Champagne from France. It's in the $20-$45 price range
The pink sparkling bubbles speak for iteself.

Banyuls
This has some acidity to it which makes it a perfect dessert wine.

Portuguese Red
Any Portuguese Red wine will suit her especially if she is a red wine kind of girl.
Price Range is in the $15-$25 range

Me

In all honesty, this stuff is great but for me I like a nice homemade dinner, Godiva chocolates, and as a gift a thoughtful present from the heart. Whether it's a simple card, or even a picture of us framed, I go for the simple things. Jewelry is nice, but knowing my guy took the time to make me something is the best gift of all. Money can't buy me love :)

Fed Up

Yes, this is a rant.

I'm kind of at that point where any little thing right now will piss me off. I could be pmsing or im really tired and grumpy from my lack of sleep this week OR maybe I really just am fed up. I'm getting tired of being so nice to people and have them just spit on me in return. I'm too nice to people sometimes and I feel like they take it for granted... I do so much for people and give so much and never get anything in return. It's almost like im working 110% and getting only 20% back. I'm sick of the guys who are just so disrespectful and mean but then a few months later see my modeling pictures and act like they are my bestfriend. It doesn't work like that, sorry. I guess stabbing people in the back is in style now? Seems to be a lot of fake people. I'm not angry at them just angry in myself for letting people walk all over me. I'm also fed up with that fact that every single sour patch exploder is grape flavor ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate that kind

Anyways.. I wish I could say that maybe ill change and be more assertive, maybe get rid of those people who are mean but that's just not who I am. I could never hold a grudge on anyone (except mike vick) I just believe in love even when love isn't given back. But for the record- just because I dont show it on the outside it really upsets me on the inside. Another grape flavor! Eff!

What If

What if we all just walked around and only showed who we really were deep down. Would the world be able to handle it or is living with secrets the only way we can live with optimism. What if for one day everyone lived their normal lives but their secrets were just written across their foreheads and when they spoke it would be as if talking to a personal diary. There is a difference between speaking the truth and speaking things you normally would rather not say. For one day could the world be able to handle every thought and every feeling a person had kept within themselves? I don't really think so. For every fake smile overrides a real one. This world would become dark if we lived how we really were. I'm not saying everyone is like this. There are the genuine people who live their lives with pure happiness and can honestly say they don't have any dark secrets (believe me... some are my friends. They're always the ones who end up never finishing their beer when playing 'never have I ever'.. we all hate those people haha kidding, I love them and we all make fun of them for it :p ) Alcoholics, gays, psychopaths, lovers, addicts, michael jackson..or wait what if everyone could just be able to read one another? Maybe that makes more sense to where I'm getting at. It is 3am and I tend to rant but I digress. Lets make this a positive shall we. What if people shared their thoughts and it led to a greater evolution. For instance,  Egypt right now protesting their way to a revolution. I just rhymed. It started with a man who set himself on fire because he was denied rights to sell fruit. Thousands more followed the protest in a matter of days. What if we spoke our minds that a positive outburst overpowered every negative? Hmmm..... what if... what if.. what if...

Money is a bitch that never sleeps. (That has nothing to do with this post I just like that line from the movie I just watched haaa!! )

I'm only going to say this once

Its 3:49am and alas I can't sleep. I blame nightmares and my hell of a day... who gets subpoenaed at school? Anyways, that's not the point. Point is: Since I cannot sleep I figured I would make this an honesty hour and write something Matt and I are soon going to endure. Within the next year, Matthew and I will be moving to India. We will only be there for about a year (maybe 6 months-depending on visa) BUT we are not telling people. Okay, we told some friends and I told some kiddos in my physics class but no more!! Why you may ask? We have no effing clue. A better question is, why not?! I do have family there, hence me being half indian anyways and maybe I'll become some huge bollywood star :D hehe I wish but hey if Julia Roberts can do it I figured we can too. Kidding. We are aiming for the city (obviously or I might go into cultural shock) like New Delhi, Calcutta is a "hidden gem" i've heard.... we don't know the deets now. Vaccine shots are on the check list oh and money... good ol' money. Which I do not currently have haaaa but I will have plenty soon because, well, it is me- and I'm a freaking genius when it comes to getting it. Chica chica yeaaa. Goals? Learn hindi, help out in as many volunteer groups as I can, eat all the indian food my tiny tummy can handle. Ahhh mouth is drooling thinking about the food!!! Most importantly, live. I'm 17 years old and I haven't started living. I need more to my life otherwise what is the point? In English today I came across a book about a girl who is very young. She ponders this question throughout the book-- "is life worth it?" I haven't read the book so I don't know what she comes up with but I want to be able to say yes, yes it is!! Mhmm skittles are so good right now

I'm out like a silva dollaa, holla :)
xoxo

Insightful

I found this very helpful and I hope it helps someone start their new year off to a great start!

Health:

1. Drink plenty of water.


2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.


3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants..


4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy


5. Make time to pray.


6. Play more games


7. Read more books than you did in 2010 .


8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day


9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:



11. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.


12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive


present moment.


13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.


14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.


15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.


16. Dream more while you are awake


17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..


18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with His/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin


your present happiness.


19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.


20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.


21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.


22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum


that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime..


23. Smile and laugh more.


24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree...

Society:



25. Call your family often.


26. Each day give something good to others.


27. Forgive everyone for everything..


28. Spend time w/ people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.


29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.


30. What other people think of you is none of your business.


31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
32. Do the right thing!


33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.


34. GOD heals everything.


35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change..


36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.


37. The best is yet to come.


38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.


39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

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Inspire me

A lot of people know that I am deeply in love with makeup. Not just simply putting it on but creating art on a plain canvas (or a beautiful girl's face). Here are some pictures that I will recreate in photoshoots coming up!

Reason

Sometimes when the light in my life goes dark it's very hard to cope with. Right now things have been hard and people aren't always the nicest but thinking about it now, I know god has made me go through it so someone else wouldn't have to. I would rather go through the pain than see someone else. It makes me feel a little better.

Speak Now

Newest pics from my photoshoot with Ron Dressel :)

This is really stupid... but I have to memorize all 27 amendments in order to graduate so I have to think of witty sayings to help me

(I figured I would write them all down and share with the world)

1. Freedom of Religion, Press, Speech, Assembly, and Opinion
2. Right to bear arms (right "2" bear arms)
3. Quartering soldiers (3's a crowd)
4. No unreasonable searches (4 = no knocks on the door)
5. Due process/ self-incrimination (I plead the 5th)
6. Right to speedy trial (2,4,6 is a speedy fix) (speedy fix)
7. Right to a jury trial ( 7 in a pile= a jury trial) ok these are stupid...
8. No cruel or unusual punishment (8 and youre in hell's gate) i suck
9. Construction of Constitution ( 9 and constitution is fine) or (9 and constitution wont change with time) wow, I hope noone reads these
10. States Rights (first 10 states)
11. Judicial limits ( one one and judicial is done done) ahahahaha
12. Choosing President and Vice president (Postition 1 and Position 2)
13. Slavery abolished
14. Citizen rights (4eign citizens can vote)
15. All men get the right to vote ( 1 and 5 and your vote is fine) ...oy... (5 guys)
16. Income tax (SIX= Start Income taX) ok I will not remember that... (6 is an income fix)
17. Senators (SEventeen and SEnators)
18. Prohibition my ass...
19. Womens rights
20. Inuguration Day is on January 20th
21. Getting rid of prohibition (you can drink when you are 21)
22. President can only have 2 term limits (22 = two terms) lucky numberr
23. DC can vote (23 for DC)
24. No poll tax (twenty four without a tax at the door)
25. Succession of president (25 and die) ... it made sense in my head... hahaha
26. Voting age is 18 (2+6=8 ... 18) or ... my birthday is the 26 and I will be 18
27. Congressional pay


This test isn't going to go very well tomorrow...

A little piece of heaven

My trip to Saint Louis

Senior pics... whaaaa?!

Senior pictures are due in two days and of course... I forgot haha... Everyone is telling me to just use one of my modeling pictures but thats no fun :(
oh well -no choice now. I'm going to use this one. It was taken last year by Stephanie Reeder Photography at a vineyard shoot and my family loves it, plus it looks like a senior pic!

"A picture is worth a thousand words."

Napoleon Bonaparte

Mean Girls

Ironically, 'Mean Girls' is my favorite movie- hands down. BUT there isnt a thing I hate more than actual mean girls or just mean people in general. Recently a girl got into a fight with me over something so pety, and now when I talk to her it takes all of my energy to not snap back. People know me for being really nice all the time but I feel like when I'm ever in an arguement or a fight they take that as a a sign of weakness. It's not that im weak or have fear it's just that I strongly believe in being nice to people even when they've been cold to you. I think that takes more courage and only strong people can actually be able to do this. However, its hard... when people make you cry its only a natural reaction to say something back to defend youself but thats not always right. After hearing more malicious things from this girl I decided to take some advice from one of my bestfriends. She told me......

 And she was exactly right. Life is way too short. Dont waste your time criticizing someone or trying to drag someone down because even if you hate the person you will always be the bigger person when you give them a smile and move on. Then they'll feel like a complete moron.

"An eye for an eye only ends up making the whole world blind."
Mohandas Gandhi 

If I was Rich Girl

In the words of Gwen Stephani, "If I was a rich girl... I'd have all the money in the world" but sadly, I'm not like Gwen and don't have all the money in the world. So whose to say I'm not trying? It all started in class when I was asked about the jobs I was working. For a 17 year old- come this winter- I will be working three jobs + school. "Ridiculous" is what I was told it was, and ridiculous indeed. But what shocked me was the negative responses I got from this. Instead of an encouraging reaction, I simply got a shake of the head and a "what do you even need money for?". All I could do was stare blankly at their snobby faces. I find it sad that these classmates (a year older than me!) were talking like this. They came from a wealthy background- so I got the part where they didn't NEED money necessarily, but wealthy or not... being a hard worker is the most admirable trait a person can have. Regardless... I do, however, need money and if basic instinct has me focused on working like a maniac to get it; so be it. In today's economy, people are losing their jobs and wealthy incomes when they least expect it. A friend of mine lost his job of 8 years, a UVA college graduate is jobless as of right now living with his parents, multi-millionaires are even living pay check by pay check. Its reality. I'm proud of myself for being driven but we live in a society where being independent is rare for the younger generation. People need to succumb to the realization EVERYONE lives differently. I pay for half the rent in my home, car insurance, phone, etc and I know plenty of other kids my age who do the same if not more! So let the snobs be snobs because later on in life they'll be maniacs too ;)

"Continuous effort - not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential."

 - Liane Cordes

LAST first day of Highschool

The bittersweet moment had come where I put on my NineWest pumps, black skinny jeans, retro white tank with a metal necklace, and walk down the halls of Monticello High School for the LAST first day of school. This morning as I woke up I truely did NOT want to go. I pleaded and begged (even suggested online classes) but I was forced to go. My wonderful boyfriend drove me and gave me a kiss good bye as I saw all the new freshman step off the buses and same familiar faces join their cliques. The day went by ok but I already have homework :( bummer... at least we can use our cellphones at school (thank god). Each year I always take a picture of me for the first day of school but this year I forgot, so here's my picture of me now. Note: I have NO makeup on and I look rough but I'm cheesin with my AP Gov. homework. Did I mention I did ALL of my summer reading today?! Yeah, pretty gnarly

ps: Math class sucks

My summer wish

School is around the corner. It's my senior year and I can't be more hestitant about going back to that hell hole of a place. I won't make this blog negative but I can't help feel sorry about what a horrible summer I had. Of course on facebook there are the amazing cruis ship statuses, pictures from gorgeous far-away beaches, and endless gossip about who went where. I, however, stayed in cville. It's not that I didn't want to go anywhere- I tried. I have a job which keeps me busy and before that I was taking care of my house and my family situations. I purposely don't want to go to the first day of school because I know people will ask "how was your summer?" and I'll simply reply, "terrible." But- whatever. If I can't have my perfect summer wish I want to at least fantisize about it.

I want to be in a gorgeous beach house right on the ocean sands overlooking the ripples of clear blue water. My itunes would be blasting throughout the house and you could hear my Pepper, Matisyahu, Slightly Stoopid, Nirvana, John Mayer, and Rooney smoothely playing out of every open door and window. I would be prancing around in a little sundress swaying to the rhthym of the music. In front of me would be a huge cookbook, containing endless possibilities of food. My fridge would be stocked full of foods to cook with and I would spend the day making whatever I wanted. Smells of warm baked goods would mix with sweet-salty sea air. When everything was done, I would walk down to a table on the beach. Lay out a beautiful silk table covering and eat away my delicious creations. The orange sun would cascade towards me as it set, matching the colors from my candle light. When I was all done, I would take a nice walk along the beach, sipping on a nice glass of wine and smiling from ear to ear. The cool water would splash onto my feet until I reached home. As I entered the house, I would slip into my pjs, put on a nice movie and fall asleep on a luxurious featherbed.


The next morning I would wake up to birds chirping and the crisp summer air filling my lungs. My hot tea would be sitting on the porch with some decadant biscottis. Then... I would start my day all over again

Thats all I could ever want. I dont need a trip to Europe, or dining on a five-star restaurant. All I want is quiet, calm, relaxtion by the beach. The only place that makes me happy...


"The cure for everything is saltwater: sweat, tears, or the sea."
-Isak Dinesen


xoxo,
Dutchess

Lastest Shoots

Scariest picture I've ever done... literally I was on the edge of a 3 story building in rva

"The Rocker" shoot with Stephen Gibson

Did a 12 hour shoot with Corey Daniels in RVA

This was in DC on a hotel rooftop

They buried me in sand!!